“Happy Birthday Father Denny”
asserts a greeting card, designed and handmade in prison, comparable to anything Hallmark could create. Handwritten inside: It’s been ten years or so since Shobha introduced us. I’m glad she did because a complete stranger turned into a complete honest friend whom I’m glad to know. I wish you B-day Blessings and many more for many years.
Love, James E. Walker
It was a typical August day, eleven years ago now, when I made my first trip to the prison in Pontiac, Illinois to meet James E. Walker. The hour and forty-five-minute drive south of Chicago found me praying that I would be able to connect with a 44-year-old man who at age 17 was convicted of murder and sentenced to life in prison without any chance of parole – sentenced to die in prison.
Once in Pontiac, I found the gatehouse, the passageway for visitors to enter the prison. “You don’t have a lawyer’s license or number,” I was told.
Let me explain. Attorney Shobha Mahedev, asked if I would be willing to join her team of lawyers at Northwestern Pritzker School of Law in Chicago. She was searching for a person who would visit a prisoner who had been sentenced as a juvenile to Life Without Parole (a JLWOP) to get his life story. After prayerful reflection (I always pray when I don’t know what I might be getting into asking “what would Gaspar do?”) I said “yes”! How do I explain all that
at the gatehouse?
Eventually cleared, I was patted down, told to take off my shoes and answer all the necessary or unnecessary questions. Later I found out that James had to go through a strip search to come visit me and also another strip search after the visit even though our visit was in a booth with a heavy glass window between us; so my pat-down was nothing!
This goes on for 91 visits
(would have been more if not for a Covid-19 hiatus for visits). The gatehouse folks have caught on that I am a rare bird and are more congenial, sometimes, they let me in without all the routines - not so with James!
That first visit hooked me on James!. “I am James Walker,”
he said. “And I want everyone to know that I am not the same person I was back then.”
He was reading Robin Casarjian’s “Houses of Healing” and continues to read many, many self-help and spiritual books. With a glimmer in his eye, he recommends this or that book for the youth he has come to know that I am mentoring. James earned a GED, as well as awards and certificates for a variety of programs and workshops he attended and completed.
The route from Chicago to Pontiac goes right past Joliet, his hometown. I’ve stopped in to visit with his parents, and Teddy their dog, any number of times. James always wants me to bring pictures of them. His father has arthritis, and his mother is legally blind. James always expresses his longing to be able to help take care of his parents.
One time I brought them with me to visit James – a very special time for all of us.
Though not a churchgoer, James shares scriptures and TV evangelist T.D. Jakes’ teachings lighting up the booth like there was no glass between us. I can’t figure out his religion other than Christian, however, it doesn’t stop us from praying together.
The 2012 U.S. Supreme Court finding that a mandated sentencing of a juvenile to life without parole is “cruel and unusual punishment” meant that many JLWOP’s were now eligible for resentencing. But those protesting James’s appeal in 2014 didn’t care. The local Joliet news printed hateful comments from the victim’s family and friends. I was at the hearing when Will County Judge Robert Livas ruled that Walker will continue to serve a life without parole – resentenced to die in prison.
When the Illinois Court of Appeals heard his case, I was there observing the three sitting judges and knew that James’ appeal was ill-fated. No one knows the rehabilitated James like I do, but no judge asked me.
An appeal to the Illinois Supreme Court is on hold for legal reasons I don’t comprehend. The only option left now is to seek clemency from Illinois governor J.D. Pritzker.
I was scheduled for my next visit with James Wednesday, October 27th at 10:00 a.m. when I receive a phone call Saturday morning the 23rd from his father, Charles. He tells me that the warden just called him telling him that at noon James had passed away in the prison hospital. Later that day I received an email from the prison stating: “Good morning! I’m writing to cancel Dennis Kinderman’s visit with James Walker for Mr. Walker passed away. Thank you.”
The day after his passing, the family had plans in place for a 75th Birthday party for James’ Mother, Barneta, It turned out to be a blessing as the family came (looked like about 50 people) to surround her and her husband with love and laughter. James had always said that he so wanted to stay in touch with his siblings, but it was not a mutual longing. Growing up with five step sisters and four other siblings, he always felt unwanted and said he couldn’t remember ever being hugged.
James was a 55-year-old man who had spent all but three years of his adult life in maximum security prisons. His final three years of incarceration were outside the wall in Pontiac’s medium security unit (MSU). There he was thrilled to have a toilet with a seat and a room with a door left open during the day, and visits could be in person not behind glass.
But his final months were in the prison hospital where I visited him, not knowing it was our final visit. I’ve seen better hospitals in third world countries. I’ve seen homeless men on the streets who appeared healthier and more cared for than James.
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is a name I will never forget and the person who brought so much depth to my life through our many visits. What a hard life. What a sad life.
He told of more than one time the “Orange Cush” (a team of men dressed in orange outfits) came through throwing everything in their cell on the floor. They took his typewriter. There were times when he didn’t get his meds; many times he was denied a doctor’s visit despite filling out the required request form. At his home-going I told how, “I saw expressions of tolerance as he shared what life was like lived incarcerated! Yet he was living his life fully, not letting his years be wasted, but years in which he was growing deeper into his relationship with God and closer to becoming the man God had designed him to be.” His was a spiritual journey lived in relationship with a God who was with him through it all.
I felt so sure that his day of freedom was in the offing, that we would overcome each setback, that he would be with us at PBMR with the other returning citizens, that his life journey in prison was schooling him to be a mentor to our youth. I hadn’t expected that his freedom would only come beyond this life. Yet I’m thankful that God brought our lives together and I can say James Emmanuel Walker, “honest friend,” shout out “Oh freedom”
at last!